It's New Year's Day, one of my favorite days of the year! I love the fresh start that it brings, and the sense of hope and anticipation for the year ahead.
I usually spend the last few days of the year looking back over my accomplishments from the past year, and ahead to my goals and resolutions for the new year. I've made this a sort-of ceremony in the past - creating vision boards and flow charts and lists upon lists. I was actually planning to write a blog about this process. But this year has been different. For one thing, Dan and I are in the middle of buying/selling houses, and all of our stuff is packed up - we're literally sitting on camping chairs because we sold all of our living room furniture. I have no food in the pantry and no idea where my crafting supplies are for the vision boards. But beyond all of that, the real reason that I'm not making lists and planning is because... I don't need to. In the past, these tools have been invaluable. For example, last year at this time, I had a deep empty feeling that I couldn't shake. So I spent these few days figuring out why I felt this way and what I could do about it. The answer, I discovered, was to stop planning and start DOING. So I created my website, I started my blog, I started painting, and I started applying to new jobs. I started actually doing all of the things that I had been avoiding out of fear and procrastination. And, believe it or not, that empty feeling vanished!
So now - for the first time in maybe my entire life - I do not have any hidden desires. There is nothing in my heart that I have ignored or repressed. There are no fears holding me back. I finally trust myself to do what I need to do as different situations and opportunities arise. I will probably always have fears around certain things, but I will never again let them stop me from doing what my heart longs to do.
So, No. I did not ring in the new year with a planner and glue gun in hand this year. I didn't need to. Dan and I went furniture shopping in Hickory, had a fabulous vegetarian dinner in Asheville, and reminisced about our 2014 highlights on our drive home. Today, we plan to continue packing, and then relax in our camping chairs!
Happy New Year!
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