I have a Dream! (or ten)


I have so many different interests and passions that I feel mildly schizophrenic most of the time.  Seriously, I wish that you guys could spend a day in my head, its like a game of ping pong… constantly jumping from one idea to the next to the next.  It’s exhausting!  So I’ve been reading and thinking a lot lately about how to narrow down my focus to one or two things and I keep getting stuck on WHICH passion to choose.

 As I’m thinking through these things, I keep coming across quotes and discussions of fear.  And I’m not talking about the kind of fear I feel when I am in danger.  This is the kind that keeps me stuck in old patterns, the fear that holds me back, fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of the unknown.  I have been a self-help junkie for many, many years, and in all of my reading and searching for answers, I have never gotten this specific message about fear… until now.  Weird.  So here are several of the quotes that I came across in literally a week’s time:

“The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure that you seek.”  Joseph Campbell

“Nervousness surrounding what I want to do is a good sign.”

“The more important a project is to your soul’s evolution, the more you’ll resist it.” Steven Pressfield

“Ultimately we know deeply that the other side of every fear is freedom.” Mary Ferguson

“He has not learned the lesson of life who does not every day surmount a fear.” Ralph Waldo Emerson

Ok, Ok, I get it already!  So I asked myself:  which passions create the most fear for you right now?  Well, writing stuff that others will actually read scares the crap out of me, and the thought of committing to creating some paintings for the first time in 10 years makes me break out into a cold sweat.  Ok, there’s my answer!

So what creates the most fear for you?  Will you do it already?!  I have finally accepted that that feeling of fear is a sure sign that something good is going to come from the thing that creates it.  What a cool way to think about something that could otherwise be so paralyzing.  Good Luck!